Monologue

Susie from the AA meeting her point of view about Susan.

So sick of these AA meetings they seem to be the same people every week to dreaing on about the same old problems. I wish something different or exciting would happen in these meetings. I wonder why I still come, I'm not like these people I've got a grip on my life. I have not drank for over a year now but I suppose I come for the company really and to get out of the house.                                                              

  Wait minute somebody new has just walked in this hasn't happened in ages. 

“Hi my name is Susan and I'm an alcoholic “she says.

She looks like she's carrying the whole world on her shoulders; turns out she's a vicar's wife which is a bit of a shock. I definitely feel sorry for her I think I would turn to drink if I was in her position, what I’m talking about I'm an alcoholic.                   

She talks about her life as a vicar's wife and about the incident with the flowers in the church where she fell over and hit ahead and all her florist's friends were sort of smothering her and running around to help her.

I notice she sat in the corner all on an own while we are having a break she looked very sad on all alone. So I decided to go over to speak to her. Hi I'm Susie I gather this is your first time here.                                                                                                  

“Yes she said I've never been to one of these meetings before, it is bit scary and admitting you're an alcoholic to other people and yourself plus being a vicar's wife you’re not supposed to do things like this”.

Susan looks like she's in her late fifty’s; she hasn't got many friends and she hates her life at present. I tell her a bit about myself, I am thirty-six and have been alcoholic for about ten years. Drunk myself silly every day and nearly died, when a friend made me come to my senses. Susan gave me sympathy look and I suppose she felt sorry for me.

 After that I saw her nearly every week she continued to come to the AA meetings and she started to look brighter and bit perkier in herself.  We started to become good friends after that and we started to confide in each of about our lives and are secrets that we haven't told anyone else. For instance she told me one day she'd slept with this Indian guy who was a shopkeeper and he was called Mr Ramesh. Susan said “he was a lot younger than myself, even though when I saw him I was drunk but I enjoyed spending time with him”. “Really I said I cannot believe a vicar's wife would do something like that but then I suppose you do anything when you’re not happy with your life”. Susan looked at me and agreed and Susan said Mr Ramesh seemed to understand her and never asked any questions about her life and he made her happy. He also made her realise that she needed to get some help, about her drinking. So she's glad she met him in a way.                                

This woman amazing to me. What Susan been through I would never thought a vicar's wife would feel like this and be an alcoholic. It's been about two months now and she's not had a drink and she seems a lot more contented in her life now .Susan seems happy with the vicar at present and am  really happy for her and we still see each other on Thursday in the AA meetings. Which am glad about.